
Monday, November 26, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
cages
yesterday and today I am suffocating.
I need home,
I need people who love Jesus like I do,
I need people who bear LIFE,
I have been in a state of deep awareness of the emptiness around me. Spatially and spiritually. I have grown fond of being in open spaces and having the realization of how small and insignificant I am and that in that insignificance the God of the universe sees me, knows me, and love ME. In these moments I am drenched with peace and hope. I am glad I am not caged in with cement and glass towering over me, but instead and surrounded with vibrant colors of fall and am constantly reminded of how amazing my Jesus is.
and then on the other hand I am so aware of the emptiness there is here spiritually. I can't help but be overwhelmed with sadness over this. I am almost alone. and I feel it every moment I am with those I am around. I reflect on the days I hang out with them, trying my best to find the gold in them, and then I am more saddened because I can't. I pray and seek the Lord as to how I can be a life giver to those around me, but it is so draining to be alone in it (yet, I am so thankful for the hours I have before and after classes to re-fuel). I am still very drawn to the verse in Ezekiel 37 where the question is asked "son of man, can these dry bones live?". I am asking that now, I can't see how a place reeking with death can live again. "O Sovereign LORD, you alone know." He alone knows. He Alone. Knows. I am hard pursuing, steadfastly waiting and asking how much longer until something breaks.
this all makes me think of birds in cages. they are content I am sure in a cage if that is what they have grown up in, but the know little to nothing of what it is to live in FREEDOM.
I need home,
I need people who love Jesus like I do,
I need people who bear LIFE,
I have been in a state of deep awareness of the emptiness around me. Spatially and spiritually. I have grown fond of being in open spaces and having the realization of how small and insignificant I am and that in that insignificance the God of the universe sees me, knows me, and love ME. In these moments I am drenched with peace and hope. I am glad I am not caged in with cement and glass towering over me, but instead and surrounded with vibrant colors of fall and am constantly reminded of how amazing my Jesus is.
and then on the other hand I am so aware of the emptiness there is here spiritually. I can't help but be overwhelmed with sadness over this. I am almost alone. and I feel it every moment I am with those I am around. I reflect on the days I hang out with them, trying my best to find the gold in them, and then I am more saddened because I can't. I pray and seek the Lord as to how I can be a life giver to those around me, but it is so draining to be alone in it (yet, I am so thankful for the hours I have before and after classes to re-fuel). I am still very drawn to the verse in Ezekiel 37 where the question is asked "son of man, can these dry bones live?". I am asking that now, I can't see how a place reeking with death can live again. "O Sovereign LORD, you alone know." He alone knows. He Alone. Knows. I am hard pursuing, steadfastly waiting and asking how much longer until something breaks.
this all makes me think of birds in cages. they are content I am sure in a cage if that is what they have grown up in, but the know little to nothing of what it is to live in FREEDOM.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
want a thrill?
Friday, November 2, 2007
I owned the gallery
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